SA KAMAY NG DILIM
       based on real life story.


I was born in Negros Occidental in the mountain of San Jose, SIpalay.
My Parents came from rich family but because of uneducated family they have. They never reached the education they both wanted. My father is half KAstila and Half Filipino. He was adopted by His second step father for him to change his surname to Decalay. His father is Kastila. Our Original surname is Dowez. The mother of my father married my second grand father and adopted my father. My real grandfather is no where to find. My second grandfather is half Chinese and half Filipino. He is more richest than my first grandfather. He loves my lola. also my Lola loved him. My second grandfather had his own family too but his wife died in early stage of their relationship. He was gifted of two daughter. The step sisters of my father. My father is the eldest of them all.He has his original sister. I called her auntie. My grandmother don't let my father to study, only for grade school. He want my father to become a farmer to her land. But, my father had a dreams. He decided to leave the mountain and go to city to study high school. My grandmother very angry with him. when my father came home. My grandmother refused to faced him and let my father leave the house without hesitation. My poor father leave the house. He decided to become a working student. He worked 3 times a day, before and after going to school. He sell foods in the morning, became a student librarian, became a shoe cleaner, anything just to leave. When his mother got sicked he return to the mountain and took care of his mother, until his step father told him to stay and work to their farm and they'll going to pay for his education. My father grab the opportunity to stay and to work in the farm. Night and Day. He never waste Money for women. Even for any kinds of material things, he earned his money to go to college. When he continued his college life he become a tutor for high school then on he met my mother. My mother is half kastila, 25% Chinese and Filipino. But I am 100% Filipino.  My mother is scholar from her school but because of poverty he go to school in her very old age. he was older to be compared to her year level. he was second year high school from that moment. My father is elder 4 years old from her. My mother fall in love to my father. Because my father was very gorgeous on that moment. My father has a girlfriend but they never serious he also fall in love to my beautiful mother.  
 Until, my father and mother decided to get married. My grandmother was very angry. she speaks all the bad words in the world. but my father never lessen. Until my mother get pregnant to my Eldest brother. the name was taken under the name of my father our Junior. Then, fallowed by my second eldest sister and fallowed by my third eldest sister.When they're bigger and bigger. My father asked a small land to my grandfather and mother. My grand mother refused to give any land for him but in replace of staying with them, Their whole family must work for them in the farm. Aside from that, my grandmother gave a piece of house to my father and that's a house of a pig. My father accepted it and cleaned it for his family. They leave their. My sisters worked in the farm and in the house of my grandmother for them to enter schooling. Until they become 7 siblings. My father decided to leave the farm but to look another opportunity from difference cities and provinces. My mother sell coffee and bread to the farmers. My sisters worked in the farm and they sell Plastics, Woods from the Wooden, vegetables and crops. Just for them to finish high school. My other sisters joined the contest for atleast, to sustain their schooling. They give their 100% in all subjects because they believed  no body will help them, Only their selves. My eldest brother became bandits, He went many places. He became good as robin hood. He knows how to hold guns. My second sister decided to go to Manila to work and study in college. She became nanny of a big garments of clothes. She invited my third sister to work their too as a nanny.Until my second sister invited my mother and my forth sister to Manila. My mother became a nanny too. She cleaned and cook for the riches people. I, was stayed in my father's hand with my 3 siblings. We still leave in the mountain. I was just 3 years old maybe. I played a lot in the mountain. I was not scared to anyone like a bandit. I know how to hold wooden gun. I climbed on the trees, mountains and played with an extra ordinary beings. They're not people they're my friends in the mountains.
When my mother earned enough money She returned to the Province and look for us they're. I was with my sister grace. She took care of me my father still working in the farm of my mothers family. We go to Manila but before that my friends in the mountain gave me a gift before i leave. It's a calculator. it's just a box of calculator. BUt it is magical. I was accidentally tore them apart. because, i was just a young girl i dont understand but it was happened that my friends from mountain fallowed me here in Manila. He looks for me. It was scarry because i almost forget him. he is different from his face when we are living in the mountain. Now my real friend from the church called him incubus. He was look like a demon. He was gray color, like a mouse. No face. But he has eyes. I saw him smiling when he visited me in Armpacc banaba, San Mateo, Rizal. His eyes is like a Fire. I saw him near from the Banana tree. he was their looking at me. Then, all the dogs and animals from that place going to his direction. Lahat sila galit sa Incubus na iyon, He was dark because the place is dark. I ignored him again because he is different. I was with my cousin at that moment and she said the dogs saw something from the banana tree. I replied a black man. Then we went away. He even visited me from my dreams. He never leave me. I decided to stay in the church because actually i was really scared. Since, grade school i saw him from our house in Marikina. I saw him everywhere i go.
Now, i bow down to Our DEAR GOD and i am not scared because i know GOD will protect me frrom everything, My mother passed away 2years ago. Now i am living alone. My all siblings have their own family. No body will protect me but HIM. Please Pray for me also.

GOD BLess.

Nasaan si Rizal?
                 For my fellow Filipino Generation.
    And to our youth's and Kids.


I.  Ako ay nagtataka at nagtatanong
Sa aking mga nababasa
Mga gulo at delubyo ng Bansa
paulet-ulit ng maraming beses.

Ako'y napapagod sa mga balita..
Wala naman kasing ka kwenta-kwenta
Puro pangungurakot at mga sakuna!
Ipinagmamalaki pa ng mga taga balita

Napapa kunot noo ako sa mga naririnig
Nandidiri sa mga nababasa
Wala na bang iba ang laman and balita
Mapa International  o Local news wala namang kwenta!

Ako'y nanaunuod ng TV mga sakuna lang
puro controversy hinde naman importante!
Naisip ko tuloy ang Libro ni Rizal
At ang katagang Ang Kabataan ang Pag-Asa ng Bayan!

Ako'y nag isip at nagtanong sa sarili..
Kong totoo pa ba ang mga katagang Ito.
Ayoko sana mawalan ng pag asa
Inisip nalang na Baka bukas may Isa na.

NAng ma icheck ang sarili kahit ako ay kulang pa
HInde lang man katulad ng kay Rizal.
Hinde man ako Bihasa katulad niya
Pero alam ko may magagawa ako.

Natanong sa Sarili Nasaan na nga ba Ang Bansang ito?
Saan ba patungo ang BAyan ko?
Katulad ba kami ng mga umaangat ?
O maiiwan nalang at mababaon sa Limot.

Nasaan na ba ang mga Pag-asa ng bayan?
Isa ba ako sa kanila o wala na talaga.
Dasal ko sa Ama na sanay bumalik ang aking sigla
Nang mabigyan hudyat ang iba,,

Pag labas ko ng bahay mga bata'y hubad
Sa kaalaman talagang ayaw nila
Hamunin ko man ang sartili talgang di ko kaya mag-isa.
Kailangan ko ng gabay ng Lumikha.

Kabataan! Bangon,,huwag naman ninyo kalimutan
Ang Inyong misyon..
Tayo ay iisa na may ipaglalaban
Huwag naman sanang maging Makasarili
Sa pag tupad ng Pangarap ang bansa ay ISAMA!

SA DIYOS ay lumuhod, Lumuha at MAgdasal
Bigyan tayo ng gabay sa Tuwi-tuwina
Harapin ang bukas na May sigla
Ipag laban ang pangarap na May pag-asa.

Crazy in love
for my first Love name M.Y.

Nakakainis ang pakiramdam
Ayoko pa ngang manaramdaman
bata pa ako sa isip at puso
pero bakit ganoon iba ang nararamdaman ng puso.

ISang saglit lang na mawala sa paningin
parang mababali na ang leeg sa kakatingin
Ang amoy mo ay bumabalik-balik pati ata bilang ng buhok mo ay alam ko na!
Taas mo ay tamang tama, tinig mo ay nakaka kaba


Para akong nawawala pag andiyan kana
Lalo na pag akoy nginingitian mo na.
Mahirap maipaliwanag nararamdaman ko sinta
Ngiti mo palang  ayos na.


Mga Una at pangalawang kasintahan 
ay walang wala sana ikaw nalang ang pinili.
Sayang ikaw ay pinakawalan pa
Sayang hinde na maibabalik ang tapos na!


Isa kang magandang ala-ala
Sa aking nakaraan
Your first Love and my Only One.
Alam ko na isang kindat ko lang babalik ka
At iiwan mo siya..


Tama na saakin ang nakaraan
Isang ala ala na amsarap balik balikan
Hinde man naging tayo
masaya parin kahit sa nakalipas still,
Your my First Love!:p

"Best friend"
    for Ermelyn Abeleda

Best friend, is forever relationship
no matter how busy you are
Whatever problems you have
I am like a sister to fight!

I am willing to share my shoulder and tears
willing to hug you tenderly..
to wipes your tears away
I am your best friend forever

To understand you unconditionally..
to love you when the world fooled
To stood up on your side
and to smile and saying it's alright when you cry.

I can give you funny jokes, and to make you laugh all day and night
Just let me know, when you need me for me to be prepare for a funny jokes.:)
I am willing to stay by your side and whisper a sweet goodbye.
Letting you sleep in my side it's a sweet lullaby

I can fight for your battles
Be a hero armored with sword to fight
Just be with me and please don't die..
Because like a fool i am willing to die.:(